First day at Kindergarten

First day at kindergarten proves to be what I had expected. The kindergarten was unprepared for my arrival as there was a miscommunication on the exact date of my "intrusion". As such, the principal was kind of caught off-guard at my arrival. The assembly at the kindergarten was probably one of the longest assemblies I have ever had in my entire life. Yes, and I really do mean it. For the most part of my school life that I remember, I probably only sing the national anthem and recite the english version of pledge. Nonetheless, for the kindergarten, I had to not only recite the pledge in english version, but also in chinese version. Besides, the kids had to sing the other songs, inclusive of the kindergarten song, coupled with the accompanying actions. I hope to be able to catch up fast and learn all these movements as soon as possible so as to facilitate my "blending in".

Some of the kids are really welcoming and excited to see me, which was really sweet of them. For today, I was assigned to follow the K1 class for the entire morning session. They were pretty well behaved, though they keep staring at me. I felt slightly uneasy but I do understand that as kids, they tend to be more curious about strangers. Hopefully, they will be able to accept me into their class soon. It was difficult trying to remember their names but I am trying my best. Now, I finally understand how hard it is for a teacher to have to remember every single person's names and faces.

In this class, there was a girl with special needs. She is unable to participate in the group's activities and she seems to be staring in space most of the time. For the activity sheet given, she chose to color the entire sheet of paper and her colorings were usually not within the lines of the picture. It was then did it dawn upon me about the existence of such special needs children and the difficulties that they face in learning. It makes me curious and want to find out more about what I can do to try to help her develop in her own learning since she was just left alone to do her own stuff during group work.

I also made a mental note about how I could possibly improve the environment of the kindergarten so as to enhance the children's learning. Nonetheless, given the awkward position that I am in now, I really have no idea to whom I can propose or put forth my ideas to so as to not make the situation worse that it already is. He told me that I am too eager to excel in my work but this is just the way I function. Perhaps this may not be the right industry for me. I feel so suffocated and helpless without any authoritative control, and this is stifling my personal development.